Fighting Against Myself [10.27.09]

I get my SAT scores in 2 days.. I'm scared. I don't think I did too well in the reading/writing section.. :/
Oh well.
Blah. I wish I could go back in time 3-5 months. I'd make a million changes. FRICK I hate living in regret. There have been so many stupid decisions that I made, and from the looks of it I'm not really learning from them, which I should.
I'm just fighting against myself. I don't know what to do. I'm telling myself one thing, and DOING something else. Something that I shouldn't be doing. Because in the end, it's just gonna screw me over. But you know what? I'm just gonna let things happen and TRY not to care.. even though I keep caring.
I'm really drifting away from school work, and I'm starting to not care at all. Ugh.. what's wrong with me? I can't seem to focus or concentrate on anything. I've been hanging out too much. I couldn't even stay awake in my classes today...
Well. I have 2 projects due tomorrow. I haven't done them. I need to study now.
UGH
Byez.