2009: A Year to Remember, and Never Forget

This post was meant to be posted on New Years Eve, but I gave it thought. I gave it a lot of thought: more than a week to ponder what my big blog post would be. I spent many showers, many hours, thinking of what to write about. I also had moments where I thought, screw it: I’ll just make it a simple happy new years post. But I couldn’t... There was way too much in my mind that was just about to burst about the year of 2009.

2009. Something Of The Past. So much change, so much love, so much hate. I can easily tell you that the year of 2009 was no doubt the very best. 1 out of 16 years of my life deemed the best. That should tell you a lot. There were so many things that were brought into my life in such little time, and so many people were introduced who would soon become very meaningful to me.

Change. I have become a child to a young adult. I have yet to acquire full maturity, and I hope that I never will. Being a child is fun, but being an adult is important. So I name myself the child-adult-wanna-be. Just kidding that’s weird. But yes. There has been SO MUCH CHANGE from 2009-2010. Looking back, I remembered where I was almost one year ago, on New Years Eve. I was in Richmond beach, at a New Years party. The people around me were drunk; people were smoking. It was the first time that I’ve ever had experienced the smell of weed. I saw my friends become pressured to try it, “it’s fun.” I of course, have strong morals and would never submit to such stupidity. Around that time, I was a delinquent. I cussed every other word. I stole. I did many things that weren’t morally correct, even though I thought myself to be. I thought, “Well compared to my friends, I’m the angel in the group.” This isn’t as true as I’d hope to be. My thoughts, my intentions, my inner being was not as pure as I thought it was.

This year had its tough times. I’ve lost so many friends. There are people who I miss so much, knowing that it’ll never be how it used to be. There are so many people who I have lost communication with, and I will hope that I will never forget anyone who has ever even touched my life. I met girls, girls who became more than friends. These people will also never be forgotten, as they have forever made an imprint in my life. I made best friends. I lost them. I hung around a bad crowd. There were just so many things that were wrong and bad in my life, but that was my best year at school. I was happiest that year than other years. Compared to my freshmen year, it was like a switch from hell to on Earth, still far from heaven.

I’m beginning to feel a bit nostalgic. Then again, who wouldn’t be? There were so many emotional moments that happened, so many events that were regarded as amazing. So many firsts, so many lasts. I can’t even begin a list of events that I would think were meaningful. I can try, however, and the list begins with friends. I have met so many new people this year than I ever have prior to this year: so many people who brought change in my life. Most importantly, I met a new family. A safe haven for when I need to retreat, is there for me with open arms. It was GPC. I can tell you that I love every member of this one large family. They will always be there for me no matter what the circumstances. I’m not sure that many of you can say the same: that they have an entire community there to back you up when the going gets tough. I will never forget the immense love that we have for one another, and the deep emotions that we have. I’ve never met such brothers who were so open and loving. These brothers are whom I love to be around with, and I hope that it’s the same the other way around. Without them, I’d be nothing: a lonely soul battling through life. This family accepted me. They know and love me for who I am. I’m truly lucky to have met such wonderful people.

I would love to talk about specifics, but I know that would just take way too long. Gosh, it’s so much. I really, really pray and wish that I will never forget any of the life-changing moments, such inspiring events, encapsulating revelations that I have experienced this year. And most importantly, I am thankful that I have been introduced to God.

Random things that keep popping in my mind:
First sunRISE
HOMECOMING…
Girlfriend
Bestfriend
Retreat
Lots of girls…
Lots of guys! No homo
MEXICO
CAR CRASH

Last year was an epitome of who I was, and what I lacked.
This year, it will about who I am, what I will learn, and what I will become.
I’m not sure that I’m ready to tackle it, but I must. 2009 was a thing of the past: it’s time to focus on the present and the future.
I hope that I will, in fact, be able to write about the end of 2010, and the beginning of a whole new 2011: The year of my graduation, the year of transformation and the apotheosis of high school. I wonder what this year has in store of me.

My resolution:
To change someone's life, for the better.