I haven't done this in a while, and I mean to. I hate being around such clamor, so much noise, that it creates such a cacophonous atmosphere where I am unable to think clearly. At such instances, I enjoy just sitting, in my solo silence, observing those around me. Undeterred, they continue their conversations, their laughter, their music, their yells, and other sorts of activities that bring noise. While watching the others so immersed in their fun, you see new details that you've never seen before, many of which are either surprising or interesting.
Observing the instance of change, transformation, are some of the greatest sights. Being able to see God do work and bless others is an amazing experience. Seeing someone whom you would have never expect to change, change, is an event that strikes something within in you. The things that you never expect are the things that expect the most. That might not make sense to you, but it does to me. Actually, it SHOULD make sense. If you don't understand it then SUCKS.
Anyways, be ready for a good new years post. :)
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
What Boredom Brings
I LOVE YOU
SA RANG HAE
WO AI NI
AISHITERU
Dang. The Japanese one ruined it, but these three words mean so much in many languages. I'm just listening to some music, and the artist is a pretty popular korean: MC Mong. So this song called Hide and Seek had a pretty good rap part and it goes like this:
I need you, so come back to me baby girl c’mon c’mon answer me
I wanna tell you that I’m sorry and I really want you to call me
I’m so sick of the rain/sick of this pain
So sick that it’s driving me insane
All night and day every time I pray and we ever meet again
All I can say is…
사랑해
I know it's hecka corny and stuff to post this on a blog, and it sounded much better being rapped, but yeah I liked it haha. I just ate my breakfast. It's 3:02. I dropped my snickers off the side of my bed dang it. Anyways, I just really like MC Mong's 4th and 5th album. It's all about love and cheesy things like that haha. Give it a listen. So... yeah I don't have anything interesting to say, but I'm just really bored. Seriously, I haven't done anything all day besides eat and go online. My youtube isn't even working so that makes matters worse. Pissed off. Not really. Gahh I think I ate too much chocolate and stuff.
You know, I could talk about a lot of stuff about things like Christmas, or how the winter retreat went, or winter break. But, I don't think that those things are very interesting.
One thing that I will say, however, is that Ocean Shores has some of the most scenic landscapes. The ocean was so amazing.. and the sunset. And then at nighttime, we could see the stars clearly. It was an amazing night of playing Harry Potter and ninja. I felt like a kid again, and let me tell you, it was fun.
Age is nothing but a number.
SA RANG HAE
WO AI NI
AISHITERU
Dang. The Japanese one ruined it, but these three words mean so much in many languages. I'm just listening to some music, and the artist is a pretty popular korean: MC Mong. So this song called Hide and Seek had a pretty good rap part and it goes like this:
I need you, so come back to me baby girl c’mon c’mon answer me
I wanna tell you that I’m sorry and I really want you to call me
I’m so sick of the rain/sick of this pain
So sick that it’s driving me insane
All night and day every time I pray and we ever meet again
All I can say is…
사랑해
I know it's hecka corny and stuff to post this on a blog, and it sounded much better being rapped, but yeah I liked it haha. I just ate my breakfast. It's 3:02. I dropped my snickers off the side of my bed dang it. Anyways, I just really like MC Mong's 4th and 5th album. It's all about love and cheesy things like that haha. Give it a listen. So... yeah I don't have anything interesting to say, but I'm just really bored. Seriously, I haven't done anything all day besides eat and go online. My youtube isn't even working so that makes matters worse. Pissed off. Not really. Gahh I think I ate too much chocolate and stuff.
You know, I could talk about a lot of stuff about things like Christmas, or how the winter retreat went, or winter break. But, I don't think that those things are very interesting.
One thing that I will say, however, is that Ocean Shores has some of the most scenic landscapes. The ocean was so amazing.. and the sunset. And then at nighttime, we could see the stars clearly. It was an amazing night of playing Harry Potter and ninja. I felt like a kid again, and let me tell you, it was fun.
Age is nothing but a number.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
From Hence On Forth
So, I categorize my blogs in 2 groups: The first group being thoughtful discoveries or questions, and the other group being updates on my life. But, I don't think that people read my blogs to see how I'm doing in life, or what I do every second, but what I derive from my actions, and how I deal with the consequences.
From hence on forth, this is the manner of how I will write. As I go through my days, and experience something that I believe is worth sharing, it will go up on this blog.
I write not for my own self, but to show everyone else what there is in the world, not from their perspective, but from the perspective of me: a high school korean boy, whom I believe is different. How many teenage boys do you see writing blogs of their daily lives? There aren't many, and I believe that blog-writing is something that really lets you express your most intimate thoughts.
If the smartest person in the world wrote a blog, I'd definitely read it. I'd want to know how he became successful, how he thinks, and maybe acquire some of his intelligence, simply from reading his blog. Reading other peoples' blogs are like seeing the world through another pair of eyes. It's fun, interesting, and you gain new insights that you might've not had before.
I lay here in my room, facing my mirror. Listening to music, texting, doing things that everyone else does. But am I the same as everyone else? I hope not. No offense of course.
From hence on forth, this is the manner of how I will write. As I go through my days, and experience something that I believe is worth sharing, it will go up on this blog.
I write not for my own self, but to show everyone else what there is in the world, not from their perspective, but from the perspective of me: a high school korean boy, whom I believe is different. How many teenage boys do you see writing blogs of their daily lives? There aren't many, and I believe that blog-writing is something that really lets you express your most intimate thoughts.
If the smartest person in the world wrote a blog, I'd definitely read it. I'd want to know how he became successful, how he thinks, and maybe acquire some of his intelligence, simply from reading his blog. Reading other peoples' blogs are like seeing the world through another pair of eyes. It's fun, interesting, and you gain new insights that you might've not had before.
I lay here in my room, facing my mirror. Listening to music, texting, doing things that everyone else does. But am I the same as everyone else? I hope not. No offense of course.
The Little Things in Life
You know, the things that seem to attract the most attention from the eyes are the bad things. We notice every discrepancy, problem, or hindrance. These distractions remove and draw from the true meaning of the large, beautiful image. Zoom out of perspective, and you don't see these implications.
But everyone wants to see the details. They strive for perfection, flawlessness. Things that are intangible, unobtainable, impossible.
They forget that the rest, however, is wonderful. Everything has its flaws, so leave them aside and you have something beautiful.
Be happy with what you have. The little things are the least important.
In the big picture, it's perfect.
If this post makes no sense, my bad. I'm tired.
But everyone wants to see the details. They strive for perfection, flawlessness. Things that are intangible, unobtainable, impossible.
They forget that the rest, however, is wonderful. Everything has its flaws, so leave them aside and you have something beautiful.
Be happy with what you have. The little things are the least important.
In the big picture, it's perfect.
If this post makes no sense, my bad. I'm tired.
Friday, December 18, 2009
My Shoes
MY shoes don't fit your feet. So don't even try stepping in them, please.
You can't look through my window without looking through a mirror first.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Creativity
Boy, I wish I had some.
I'm really tired these days, and really weak. I can't do many pushups anymore.
Ah jeez... Today was the Shorewood video. I don't think I was in it. What a waste of getting rained on and freezing my butt off.
:/
Freeee falling.
I'm really tired these days, and really weak. I can't do many pushups anymore.
Ah jeez... Today was the Shorewood video. I don't think I was in it. What a waste of getting rained on and freezing my butt off.
:/
Freeee falling.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Jealousy
I'M JEALOUS OF TRAVIS GRAHAM'S VOICE.
THAT IS ALL
Just kidding. I'm jealous of people who are super happy and content with their lives.
Actually, I don't want to be content. Then there would be nothing to live for.
Which I need.
WOO
THAT IS ALL
Just kidding. I'm jealous of people who are super happy and content with their lives.
Actually, I don't want to be content. Then there would be nothing to live for.
Which I need.
WOO
Monday, December 7, 2009
Arbitrary Thoughts
It's been a while, hasn't it, since I've written a blog? I don't really know. I wonder if anyone even follows my blogs anymore haha. Before, I wanted to share my thoughts with everyone, but now, it just feels good for me, personally, to express what's in my head.
This past week has been quite an adventure. Haha, so much excitement and fun! Good things don't last forever, however, but us as humans try to derive meaning and prolong that happiness for as long as we can. The meaning of life is simple; Live happily and obtain happiness through righteousness.
Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galaxies
Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
This past week has been quite an adventure. Haha, so much excitement and fun! Good things don't last forever, however, but us as humans try to derive meaning and prolong that happiness for as long as we can. The meaning of life is simple; Live happily and obtain happiness through righteousness.
Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galaxies
Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Fathom
I have just realized, that with my current attitude, with my current mindset, my current laziness, I will not get into college. I will not become successful. All this wasted talent.
I won't become a waste. I will become something; something bid, something different.
I won't go th
I will go through with this!
I will get on track
Oh jeez.
I won't become a waste. I will become something; something bid, something different.
I won't go th
I will go through with this!
I will get on track
Oh jeez.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Oh My Gosh
Looking back, looking WAY BACK, I've noticed that I was a sweet child. Sweet and innocent.
Compared to me now, the present me is a monster. Where and when did I undergo this hideous transformation?
What the frick?
Compared to me now, the present me is a monster. Where and when did I undergo this hideous transformation?
What the frick?
Monday, November 23, 2009
LIFE
Working sucks. School sucks.
Church is good. God is good. Friends are good.
It's good to have real and transparent friends that aren't afraid to confront and just be honest with each other.
I hope tomorrow's weather will be nice for everyone to enjoy.
:)
Church is good. God is good. Friends are good.
It's good to have real and transparent friends that aren't afraid to confront and just be honest with each other.
I hope tomorrow's weather will be nice for everyone to enjoy.
:)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
This Second
At this second, I feel nostalgia slowly coming from the back of my mind, hindering my complete serenity and peace. There's a bit of me that will never let go of the things that were once important in my life, that I have sacrificed much thought and feelings for. There are many decisions of the past of which I regret having made; many events where I have made mistakes or errors. These are the things that make up who I am today, as every failure, mistake, hindrance, is a tool that may be used in the future. They are life lessons that stay in your mind that are both subconscious or subliminal, only appearing when it is time to recall the fact.
With these thoughts to help you in your way to succeed, it depends on what experiences you have had that make you either succeed or fail in life. These experiences differentiate you and me. I am the type of person who holds on to memories; I store mementos in the form of movie tickets, photos, gifts, anything that reminds me of the fond experiences and delights from the past. I do not want to grow up older forgetting who I was as a child. I want to know who I was, what I did, and everything about myself. Forgetting is one of my greatest fears.
As of now, I aspire to become successful. Successful in helping the world for the better, to become known and written down in history. I fear of flaunting riches and falling towards lust and greed. I must be different than everyone else; I will be strong in ways others are weak. The stronger will succeed and will live a life of content and happiness.
I believe one's capability in writing defines who they are. To understand written material proves one's intelligence in learning ability. The ability to grasp concepts is how I measure intelligence; the level of analytical skills.
Laziness is man's greatest weakness. The difference between a successful person and an unsuccessful person is the determination. You can be smart and shrewd, but what use is the intelligence if there is no way to apply it in a way that benefits the society? It is useless. Creativity is also needed juxtaposed to dedication and innovation, in order to become a success.
You and me: we are different. In ways you would not expect.
I choose to write this post in this form so that you can grasp a sense of knowing who I am, and who I can be.
Compared to my previous posts, you see the laziness I have. When compared to this, you can see the potential that an individual, such as myself, have. This is who I am. Lazy and careless on the outside. Inside, a deep in thought human being who appears to be like everyone else.
Who are you?
With these thoughts to help you in your way to succeed, it depends on what experiences you have had that make you either succeed or fail in life. These experiences differentiate you and me. I am the type of person who holds on to memories; I store mementos in the form of movie tickets, photos, gifts, anything that reminds me of the fond experiences and delights from the past. I do not want to grow up older forgetting who I was as a child. I want to know who I was, what I did, and everything about myself. Forgetting is one of my greatest fears.
As of now, I aspire to become successful. Successful in helping the world for the better, to become known and written down in history. I fear of flaunting riches and falling towards lust and greed. I must be different than everyone else; I will be strong in ways others are weak. The stronger will succeed and will live a life of content and happiness.
I believe one's capability in writing defines who they are. To understand written material proves one's intelligence in learning ability. The ability to grasp concepts is how I measure intelligence; the level of analytical skills.
Laziness is man's greatest weakness. The difference between a successful person and an unsuccessful person is the determination. You can be smart and shrewd, but what use is the intelligence if there is no way to apply it in a way that benefits the society? It is useless. Creativity is also needed juxtaposed to dedication and innovation, in order to become a success.
You and me: we are different. In ways you would not expect.
I choose to write this post in this form so that you can grasp a sense of knowing who I am, and who I can be.
Compared to my previous posts, you see the laziness I have. When compared to this, you can see the potential that an individual, such as myself, have. This is who I am. Lazy and careless on the outside. Inside, a deep in thought human being who appears to be like everyone else.
Who are you?
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
What?
When a guy says he's confused, he's seriously confused. When a guy asks a girl to explain, they really have no clue what's going on.
So girls, don't jump to accusations and conclusions. Please explain and calm yourself before exploding on a dude for no apparent/obvious reason.
Today I had a great time with Luke Tchao, Andrew Ling, and the Kang sisters.
:)
Adventure status.
Everything - Lifehouse
So girls, don't jump to accusations and conclusions. Please explain and calm yourself before exploding on a dude for no apparent/obvious reason.
Today I had a great time with Luke Tchao, Andrew Ling, and the Kang sisters.
:)
Adventure status.
Everything - Lifehouse
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Huh [11.08.09]
I'm alone. But I have God with me. Many of us forget that. Including me.
Hehe. Why do I mention the solar system? Because you in my soul and system.
Because of You Remix by Ne-Yo and Kanye West
Listen
Hehe. Why do I mention the solar system? Because you in my soul and system.
Because of You Remix by Ne-Yo and Kanye West
Listen
Thursday, November 5, 2009
NICENESS. Literally [11.05.09]
SOOOOO REMEMBER THE BIRD IN MY LAST POST???? WELLL......
[20:08] Colleen: you know that bird?
[20:08] Jason: yeah???
[20:08] Colleen: he's been adopted by bluefin hahahaha
[20:08] Colleen: nooo joke
[20:08] Jason: HAHHAH
[20:08] Jason: WTFRICK
[20:08] Colleen: im not even kidding!
[20:08] Colleen: my mom told me about it yesterday
THAT'S HECKA NICE. Glad to see people step up and help others :)
That's what it's all about: just going out and just spreading the love brotha. Hehe I'm glad the bird found a place to live.
My lifee right now... hm.. it's alright. Tying up some loose ends. It's good stuff. I felt like spending today as a day of relaxation and chilling. I watched Lord of the Rings 1 and 2. Back to back. I'm too tired to watch the third one today. Maybe tomorrow? And then after I'm finished with this series, I'm gonna watch the entire Pirates of the Carribean. YEAH. Sounds hecka fun.
Anyways, don't have much else to say today. I'm frickin' tired though. Might write some more later. :D
[20:08] Colleen: you know that bird?
[20:08] Jason: yeah???
[20:08] Colleen: he's been adopted by bluefin hahahaha
[20:08] Colleen: nooo joke
[20:08] Jason: HAHHAH
[20:08] Jason: WTFRICK
[20:08] Colleen: im not even kidding!
[20:08] Colleen: my mom told me about it yesterday
THAT'S HECKA NICE. Glad to see people step up and help others :)
That's what it's all about: just going out and just spreading the love brotha. Hehe I'm glad the bird found a place to live.
My lifee right now... hm.. it's alright. Tying up some loose ends. It's good stuff. I felt like spending today as a day of relaxation and chilling. I watched Lord of the Rings 1 and 2. Back to back. I'm too tired to watch the third one today. Maybe tomorrow? And then after I'm finished with this series, I'm gonna watch the entire Pirates of the Carribean. YEAH. Sounds hecka fun.
Anyways, don't have much else to say today. I'm frickin' tired though. Might write some more later. :D
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
SICK and TIRED [11.03.09]
Brotha, I am sick and tired. Literally and figuratively. I’m sick right now and I’ve got a nasty cough and sore throat. I guess it’s okay because I don’t have a stuffy nose, but I feel it coming up next. That’s the thing I hate most: a stuffed up nose. When my nose it’s blocked, I can’t even breathe right. With this lack of oxygen reaching my brain, I just don’t feel like I’m there. My eyes are seeing things, but what am I even looking at? My mind doesn’t even process what I do when I’m sick. I shouldn’t be going to school; I can’t pay attention when I’m sick. I have 7 packets of vocab words to memorize, which shouldn’t take too long.
I had a job interview today at American Eagle Outfitters. Do I want the job? Sure. Would I care if I didn’t get the job? Probably not, but if everyone else got the job, then I would care. I wasn’t nervous or scared, it’s just a job interview. Something I’m good at is winging it. Unless it’s something I should have studied for. Presentations, interviews, anything that requires speech is easy for me. I can speak well and proper, it’s just natural for me. I go too fast though, and sometimes stumble on my words but that’s easy to fix. For the interview, I didn’t dress up nice or pretend to be someone else. I think that that’s stupid; to go to a job interview pretending to be interested or caring. I went in the clothes I usually wear everyday. I don’t own any American Eagle clothes, except for a jacket. Won’t stop me from working.
I saw a bird today outside the mall. It had a broken foot. You could say that I was pretty concerned for it, and I wanted to help it in some way. I wasn’t lying in my interview when I said that I like helping people. I wanted to help this bird, as it was just sad to see it hop around with one foot. What am I supposed to do in a situation like that? I wanted to draw enough attention on it so that someone would come along, look at me looking at the bird, and then they would be able to help it. I guess this just shows what kind of a person I am. And then what really pissed me off is that two people ran up the bird and tried to kick it. I mean wtf? They were like in their mid twenties and they’re trying to kick an injured bird. That pissed me off. But then the bird disappeared after we got Andrew’s food. I wonder what happened to it.
There are many wants, many desires. How many, though, among these wants, are needs? A few, probably. Why can’t people just be content with what they have? I’m not excluding myself; I want tons of stuff that I can’t have. It’s just so weird, how we want things. We try so hard to impress others. We suit the common interest, not our own interests. We do what we think will make other people jealous. We don’t do it for our own happiness, unless you like making people jealous. Actually that’s probably the goal for everyone: to make everyone jealous. Too bad we care so much about what other people think. It’s stupid. I wish the whole world were blind. Wouldn’t that be so much easier? I WISH ADAM AND EVE NEVER SINNED. Then I could walk around naked and not care about anything. Well actually if they never sinned then life would be perfect.
Oh well. I hate clothing. It’s so bothersome.
I hate impressing others but I’m just a hypocrite that follows the general society. Something I don’t want to be. Trying to be unique and trying to impress others ultimately ends up with opposite results. Since everyone tries to be unique, that’s not really unique. There’s nothing/no one really unique anymore, besides the people who are blind and don’t care about what people think/look like.
I had a job interview today at American Eagle Outfitters. Do I want the job? Sure. Would I care if I didn’t get the job? Probably not, but if everyone else got the job, then I would care. I wasn’t nervous or scared, it’s just a job interview. Something I’m good at is winging it. Unless it’s something I should have studied for. Presentations, interviews, anything that requires speech is easy for me. I can speak well and proper, it’s just natural for me. I go too fast though, and sometimes stumble on my words but that’s easy to fix. For the interview, I didn’t dress up nice or pretend to be someone else. I think that that’s stupid; to go to a job interview pretending to be interested or caring. I went in the clothes I usually wear everyday. I don’t own any American Eagle clothes, except for a jacket. Won’t stop me from working.
I saw a bird today outside the mall. It had a broken foot. You could say that I was pretty concerned for it, and I wanted to help it in some way. I wasn’t lying in my interview when I said that I like helping people. I wanted to help this bird, as it was just sad to see it hop around with one foot. What am I supposed to do in a situation like that? I wanted to draw enough attention on it so that someone would come along, look at me looking at the bird, and then they would be able to help it. I guess this just shows what kind of a person I am. And then what really pissed me off is that two people ran up the bird and tried to kick it. I mean wtf? They were like in their mid twenties and they’re trying to kick an injured bird. That pissed me off. But then the bird disappeared after we got Andrew’s food. I wonder what happened to it.
There are many wants, many desires. How many, though, among these wants, are needs? A few, probably. Why can’t people just be content with what they have? I’m not excluding myself; I want tons of stuff that I can’t have. It’s just so weird, how we want things. We try so hard to impress others. We suit the common interest, not our own interests. We do what we think will make other people jealous. We don’t do it for our own happiness, unless you like making people jealous. Actually that’s probably the goal for everyone: to make everyone jealous. Too bad we care so much about what other people think. It’s stupid. I wish the whole world were blind. Wouldn’t that be so much easier? I WISH ADAM AND EVE NEVER SINNED. Then I could walk around naked and not care about anything. Well actually if they never sinned then life would be perfect.
Oh well. I hate clothing. It’s so bothersome.
I hate impressing others but I’m just a hypocrite that follows the general society. Something I don’t want to be. Trying to be unique and trying to impress others ultimately ends up with opposite results. Since everyone tries to be unique, that’s not really unique. There’s nothing/no one really unique anymore, besides the people who are blind and don’t care about what people think/look like.
Interesting title here? [11.03.09]
I don't wanna finish the last blog haha. I just went to Sam's house and we just chilled.
Don't remember what I was talking about in the last post, so I'm starting new.
I have a job interview tomorrow at 3:45, and yeah I'm not nervous at all. It's just an interview. It's no biggie.
Sooo yeah I'm content with life now. :)
There's no drama no crap nothing bad. Besides school of course. Blah I hate school.
Well, I love school, just hate homework.
I'm tired.
Song of the day/week: Use Somebody
Thoughtful post coming up soon.
Don't remember what I was talking about in the last post, so I'm starting new.
I have a job interview tomorrow at 3:45, and yeah I'm not nervous at all. It's just an interview. It's no biggie.
Sooo yeah I'm content with life now. :)
There's no drama no crap nothing bad. Besides school of course. Blah I hate school.
Well, I love school, just hate homework.
I'm tired.
Song of the day/week: Use Somebody
Thoughtful post coming up soon.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Halloween [10.31.09]
Today is Halloween. I didn't do anything today. Time to do something though! I'm leaving in a bit so I'll leave this post short.
Basically I'm just chill with life right now. I'm not complaining - hold that thought I have to leave. DUECE haha
Basically I'm just chill with life right now. I'm not complaining - hold that thought I have to leave. DUECE haha
Thursday, October 29, 2009
ME [10.29.09]
I got 1790. Frick I fail at life.
Time to take off this mask, show some transparency.
Time to be me
Time to take off this mask, show some transparency.
Time to be me
Dead [10.29.09]
So I get my scores at 8 in the morning. It'll definitely be the first thing I do in school.
I am not doing so well in school. I'm actually not doing so well in anything haha.
I'm failing pretty bad. Don't know why, and for some reason I won't do anything about it besides tell myself and everyone.
Hm.. what am I doing with life right now? Haha I have no idea. I'm just following a boring schedule. You know what? I'm going to start doing homework right when I get home. That seems to be a huge problem for me. Doing homework this late at night. I should be doing it right now, except I can't because I left my textbook at school.
I want someone to talk to, but I don't. Frick. Well, it's time to go shower and sleep.
Goodnight, World.
I am not doing so well in school. I'm actually not doing so well in anything haha.
I'm failing pretty bad. Don't know why, and for some reason I won't do anything about it besides tell myself and everyone.
Hm.. what am I doing with life right now? Haha I have no idea. I'm just following a boring schedule. You know what? I'm going to start doing homework right when I get home. That seems to be a huge problem for me. Doing homework this late at night. I should be doing it right now, except I can't because I left my textbook at school.
I want someone to talk to, but I don't. Frick. Well, it's time to go shower and sleep.
Goodnight, World.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Fighting Against Myself [10.27.09]
I get my SAT scores in 2 days.. I'm scared. I don't think I did too well in the reading/writing section.. :/
Oh well.
Blah. I wish I could go back in time 3-5 months. I'd make a million changes. FRICK I hate living in regret. There have been so many stupid decisions that I made, and from the looks of it I'm not really learning from them, which I should.
I'm just fighting against myself. I don't know what to do. I'm telling myself one thing, and DOING something else. Something that I shouldn't be doing. Because in the end, it's just gonna screw me over. But you know what? I'm just gonna let things happen and TRY not to care.. even though I keep caring.
I'm really drifting away from school work, and I'm starting to not care at all. Ugh.. what's wrong with me? I can't seem to focus or concentrate on anything. I've been hanging out too much. I couldn't even stay awake in my classes today...
Well. I have 2 projects due tomorrow. I haven't done them. I need to study now.
UGH
Byez.
Oh well.
Blah. I wish I could go back in time 3-5 months. I'd make a million changes. FRICK I hate living in regret. There have been so many stupid decisions that I made, and from the looks of it I'm not really learning from them, which I should.
I'm just fighting against myself. I don't know what to do. I'm telling myself one thing, and DOING something else. Something that I shouldn't be doing. Because in the end, it's just gonna screw me over. But you know what? I'm just gonna let things happen and TRY not to care.. even though I keep caring.
I'm really drifting away from school work, and I'm starting to not care at all. Ugh.. what's wrong with me? I can't seem to focus or concentrate on anything. I've been hanging out too much. I couldn't even stay awake in my classes today...
Well. I have 2 projects due tomorrow. I haven't done them. I need to study now.
UGH
Byez.
Monday, October 26, 2009
YEAH MOTHA [10.26.09]
ALL GOOD THINGS (or bad) COME TO AN END.
You could say that I'm glad. Or sad. Depends on the situation. But you know what? There's no point in looking back on your life. It's always the good life in front of you. You know what's a good song? Good Life by Kanye. Even though he was stupid he has some good songs. I'm gonna listen to it right now. Right now I'm listening to Best I Ever Had. This is the wrong song right now, needless to say haha. Oh frick, I'm watching the music video and it's filthy. Hahah what the heck.
Anyways, today.. full of poop. I'm done haha. But it's easier said than done.. :/
I really need to beat something/someone up. Frick haha..
Well. This is the bad life. It better get better.
Best songs right now:
Fallin' For You - Colbie Cailat
Two is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls, Taylor Swift
Break Up - Mario
Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z, Alicia Keys
yeah
You could say that I'm glad. Or sad. Depends on the situation. But you know what? There's no point in looking back on your life. It's always the good life in front of you. You know what's a good song? Good Life by Kanye. Even though he was stupid he has some good songs. I'm gonna listen to it right now. Right now I'm listening to Best I Ever Had. This is the wrong song right now, needless to say haha. Oh frick, I'm watching the music video and it's filthy. Hahah what the heck.
Anyways, today.. full of poop. I'm done haha. But it's easier said than done.. :/
I really need to beat something/someone up. Frick haha..
Well. This is the bad life. It better get better.
Best songs right now:
Fallin' For You - Colbie Cailat
Two is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls, Taylor Swift
Break Up - Mario
Empire State of Mind - Jay-Z, Alicia Keys
yeah
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Aftermath [10.25.09]
Finally a blog.
So today's the day after homecoming. We spent summer till 2 days ago planning what we'd do. We were excited and just went crazy. It went by too fast. I had fun, but it was limited.
Things are always not what they seem to be. But I guess you could say that I knew it, that I knew that the good things had some bad in it too, just hidden.
Here's what I've been trying to do for a while:
What I like about a girl and what I don't. It's in order
Wants:
accepting
crazy as I am
mature
smart
she has to be patient
outgoing
nice
cute
generous
she can dance or sing
korean
hahaha jk
Don't want:
immature
stupid
talks about other guys
selfish
loud
annoying
make up
two faced
fake
stupid
immature
immature
yeah.
That's just something I wanted to write down haha.
Well, now I'm just chillin`. Now that homecoming's over, there's nothing to do.
There are tons of things happening though, and I'm excited. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Black Friday, Christmas, New Years, Prayer retreat, NICE. I'm excited (:
Blah. I'm done bye
So today's the day after homecoming. We spent summer till 2 days ago planning what we'd do. We were excited and just went crazy. It went by too fast. I had fun, but it was limited.
Things are always not what they seem to be. But I guess you could say that I knew it, that I knew that the good things had some bad in it too, just hidden.
Here's what I've been trying to do for a while:
What I like about a girl and what I don't. It's in order
Wants:
accepting
crazy as I am
mature
smart
she has to be patient
outgoing
nice
cute
generous
she can dance or sing
korean
hahaha jk
Don't want:
immature
stupid
talks about other guys
selfish
loud
annoying
make up
two faced
fake
stupid
immature
immature
yeah.
That's just something I wanted to write down haha.
Well, now I'm just chillin`. Now that homecoming's over, there's nothing to do.
There are tons of things happening though, and I'm excited. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Black Friday, Christmas, New Years, Prayer retreat, NICE. I'm excited (:
Blah. I'm done bye
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Whatever [09.15.09]
Well, I haven't posted a blog in a while. There hasn't been much new. Actually a lot is new, but I don't feel like saying everything that has happened in the past couple weeks. I remember the last time I was about to post was after Sam Back's back to school sleep over. It was great.
Right now, I'm disappointed in everything. Just everything screwing everything over. Ugh what's there to do right now? I don't even feel like doing homework anyone. I'm getting mad about everything. Life is bullshit right now. Whatever though.
I'm just gonna sit back, relax, and watch the gears turn. Time's ticking and you gotta keep moving on. But yeah there's nothing really to look forward to. Homecoming? It's whatever. Too much crap happening from it.
Girls? Yeah what the frick is going on. I didn't have girl problems a week ago, but lots of things change in an hour or 24. I have tons of homework this week. Screw it. WHATEVER
Right now, I'm disappointed in everything. Just everything screwing everything over. Ugh what's there to do right now? I don't even feel like doing homework anyone. I'm getting mad about everything. Life is bullshit right now. Whatever though.
I'm just gonna sit back, relax, and watch the gears turn. Time's ticking and you gotta keep moving on. But yeah there's nothing really to look forward to. Homecoming? It's whatever. Too much crap happening from it.
Girls? Yeah what the frick is going on. I didn't have girl problems a week ago, but lots of things change in an hour or 24. I have tons of homework this week. Screw it. WHATEVER
Friday, September 4, 2009
Bipolar-ness [09.04.09, 11:26 PM]
Hello world. Today's weather was pretty good. It's funny though, how it's very sunny out, but sometimes it rains at the same time. I'd like to say that Seattle weather is very bipolar.
You know what else is bipolar? My mommy. She is seriously being very weird recently. Yesterday, she woke me up from a nap, yelling at me to get up and study. I just stared at her for about 5 minutes (seemed way longer) until she finally left. I went back to sleep. I didn't hear much of what she said, besides her telling me to study.
The next day (today), I was at school. Nothing really anything out of the ordinary happened. Just a dull day of school. We had a whole BCD hangout after school planned, and I was going to tell my mom about it after 5th period. I called her, and I told her that I was going to hang out after school, and then go to church. She started yelling how I wasn't allowed to go to church anymore, and then said I couldn't hang out after school. I was pissed, and started yelling on the phone, and hung up because a teacher was staring at me yelling in another language. My mom called me 3 more times, because I hung up abruptly without saying bye, which she utterly hates, and I told her it was because I was in math. After school, she drove me home and asked me in a acrimonious tone what time I was going to church. She said go study and we'd see. I pretended to study for 2 hours, on the laptop watching korean movies with my math textbook beside me, in case she checked up on me.
After my dad came home, my mom told me that I had to show him what I'd studied if I wanted to leave. I just told him it was time for church and we left.
CHURCH was wonderful. I was a bit sleepy during small groups, but it was okay. Worship was great. It was passionate, with less excitement and jumping around. It was a great time of prayer and glorifying God. What more can I expect from worship with GPC family? It's always full of fun and love. That's what being Christian is, love God and love people.
After worship, ping pong swept over the room. I sweated like crazy, which was nice. I still need to take a shower. Later, I got dropped off at home, and my mom surprisingly was very sweet and made me sushi, er kimbap, and sliced peaches for me. I love my mom, it's just that we have those moments. I prayed for patience today, and also for my parents to have patience with me. It's actually something that we all need these days.
I'm being patient right now. Just waiting for change around me, around us, and in me.
I'm feeling pretty chill right now. I'm excited for this weekend, which will hopefully be a blast. :)
This is all for this post. Gooooodbyee and thanks for reading.
You know what else is bipolar? My mommy. She is seriously being very weird recently. Yesterday, she woke me up from a nap, yelling at me to get up and study. I just stared at her for about 5 minutes (seemed way longer) until she finally left. I went back to sleep. I didn't hear much of what she said, besides her telling me to study.
The next day (today), I was at school. Nothing really anything out of the ordinary happened. Just a dull day of school. We had a whole BCD hangout after school planned, and I was going to tell my mom about it after 5th period. I called her, and I told her that I was going to hang out after school, and then go to church. She started yelling how I wasn't allowed to go to church anymore, and then said I couldn't hang out after school. I was pissed, and started yelling on the phone, and hung up because a teacher was staring at me yelling in another language. My mom called me 3 more times, because I hung up abruptly without saying bye, which she utterly hates, and I told her it was because I was in math. After school, she drove me home and asked me in a acrimonious tone what time I was going to church. She said go study and we'd see. I pretended to study for 2 hours, on the laptop watching korean movies with my math textbook beside me, in case she checked up on me.
After my dad came home, my mom told me that I had to show him what I'd studied if I wanted to leave. I just told him it was time for church and we left.
CHURCH was wonderful. I was a bit sleepy during small groups, but it was okay. Worship was great. It was passionate, with less excitement and jumping around. It was a great time of prayer and glorifying God. What more can I expect from worship with GPC family? It's always full of fun and love. That's what being Christian is, love God and love people.
After worship, ping pong swept over the room. I sweated like crazy, which was nice. I still need to take a shower. Later, I got dropped off at home, and my mom surprisingly was very sweet and made me sushi, er kimbap, and sliced peaches for me. I love my mom, it's just that we have those moments. I prayed for patience today, and also for my parents to have patience with me. It's actually something that we all need these days.
I'm being patient right now. Just waiting for change around me, around us, and in me.
I'm feeling pretty chill right now. I'm excited for this weekend, which will hopefully be a blast. :)
This is all for this post. Gooooodbyee and thanks for reading.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Child Thinking [09.02.09, 10:28 PM]
Today was the first day of school. It sucked, but I don't want to talk about it.
What I want to talk about is how I am scared that I might have a closed mind. I'm reading my AP Lit articles, and there was one that struck me as weird/scary. It's like I was reading something and then I started to think about something related to it, which scared me.
When we grow up in school or in our homes, we become accustomed to every little action that repeat on a daily basis. When we see each other, we automatically open our arms ready for an embrace, and when or if it doesn't come, we're confused, because it just disrupted our normal life and actions. This may also happen with other things, such as reading, or writing, or just doing normal things. We do things repeatedly everyday, and we don't open our minds to anything new. We close our minds, and we don't allow anything intuitive or ambitious to occur in our brain. Creativity is hard to obtain, as we begin to read less and focus on the computer screen for the majority of our lives.
I was beginning to think, how wonderful it would to think like a child. Children are always open to new ideas, and the windows of learning new things are always open, until their young adult years. I wish to keep my windows open, and to always learn new things. I've always been thinking, about writing down every life skill needed to succeed in life. Whether it be social, math, english, or any subject, if it benefited me, it could benefit others. Knowing things like, picking your nose and eating your boogers is unattractive, would definitely help a kid who didn't understand what the problem was with eating your own boogers. Or maybe skills for talking to a girl, or learning a formula for math or something. Anything. I wanted to write down these little life lessons, so that if I had a child I could present them this book or list so that they wouldn't make the simple mistakes as I had. But now, I realize that these kids, they need to learn by themselves and first-hand experience all these things. Like if the girl they liked saw them eating boogers and they were disgusted, I highly doubt he'd do it again. I never ate my boogers, I just knew it was gross. I was on the bus the other day and I saw a grown man of around 35-45 eating his boogers in front of all his friends. I just hope my child doesn't learn the same way he did. As for me, I'm going to keep these windows open as long as I can, and hopefully stay a student who learns until I die. I don't want to limit myself to what I can know, and really expand my boundaries of thought. I really want to learn something new, everyday.
Now time to continue my homework. Frick.
Oh and I think I'm sick because I left my window open while I took a nap. Shoot.
What I want to talk about is how I am scared that I might have a closed mind. I'm reading my AP Lit articles, and there was one that struck me as weird/scary. It's like I was reading something and then I started to think about something related to it, which scared me.
When we grow up in school or in our homes, we become accustomed to every little action that repeat on a daily basis. When we see each other, we automatically open our arms ready for an embrace, and when or if it doesn't come, we're confused, because it just disrupted our normal life and actions. This may also happen with other things, such as reading, or writing, or just doing normal things. We do things repeatedly everyday, and we don't open our minds to anything new. We close our minds, and we don't allow anything intuitive or ambitious to occur in our brain. Creativity is hard to obtain, as we begin to read less and focus on the computer screen for the majority of our lives.
I was beginning to think, how wonderful it would to think like a child. Children are always open to new ideas, and the windows of learning new things are always open, until their young adult years. I wish to keep my windows open, and to always learn new things. I've always been thinking, about writing down every life skill needed to succeed in life. Whether it be social, math, english, or any subject, if it benefited me, it could benefit others. Knowing things like, picking your nose and eating your boogers is unattractive, would definitely help a kid who didn't understand what the problem was with eating your own boogers. Or maybe skills for talking to a girl, or learning a formula for math or something. Anything. I wanted to write down these little life lessons, so that if I had a child I could present them this book or list so that they wouldn't make the simple mistakes as I had. But now, I realize that these kids, they need to learn by themselves and first-hand experience all these things. Like if the girl they liked saw them eating boogers and they were disgusted, I highly doubt he'd do it again. I never ate my boogers, I just knew it was gross. I was on the bus the other day and I saw a grown man of around 35-45 eating his boogers in front of all his friends. I just hope my child doesn't learn the same way he did. As for me, I'm going to keep these windows open as long as I can, and hopefully stay a student who learns until I die. I don't want to limit myself to what I can know, and really expand my boundaries of thought. I really want to learn something new, everyday.
Now time to continue my homework. Frick.
Oh and I think I'm sick because I left my window open while I took a nap. Shoot.
FRICK [09.02.09, 12:24 AM]
Frick. I should be sparknoting Scarlet Letter right now, but I'm choosing not to. Hopefully, school tomorrow will be easy enough so that we don't do any real work. Right now, I am definitely not ready for school. I just can't believe that it's school later today. It just hasn't struck me yet. I haven't bought any supplies; I still use the same pencil and eraser as I did last year, which is still in my backpack. I'm not bringing much, which might be a mistake.
I wrote a poem today. About nostalgia. I'll post it when I'm completely finished.
Heh heh
That's it, gonna chat a bit then read then sleep. DUECE
*Shortest blog
I wrote a poem today. About nostalgia. I'll post it when I'm completely finished.
Heh heh
That's it, gonna chat a bit then read then sleep. DUECE
*Shortest blog
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Last Day of Summer [09.01.09]
Today is the last day of summer. I've dreaded this day all throughout summer, and now that's finally here, I'm freaking out. I haven't read any of my AP Lit books. I'm on chapter 4 of Crime and Punishment. I'm going to do some hardcore reading after this, but I doubt I'll finish. Darn. Really upset and I'm disappointed in myself, as once again I've procrastinated. SHOOT.
I don't think I'm going to be doing anything today. I'm going to eat tonight at AAA buffet, which I'm excited for. Yeah that's it. I'm going to talk about yesterday now.
Yesterday I didn't blog cause I was bored. I woke up at 1:47, and I had to be at church by 2. I got there at 2:15. We (Sam, Kaleb, JP) were taking a ... what's the word ... uhh PLACEMENT test, or just to see where we were at, for the SAT. It was two hours long, which actually didn't seem too long. We were supposed to go to the library after that (WHICH I SHOULD HAVE FRICK) but ended up going to Nacho's house, then JP's house, and just played Zenonia. All day. All night. At 1:00 I started reading Crime and Punishment, and got chapter 4 and slept. Yeah that was my day.
I might post something later if something comes up.
Peacee
I don't think I'm going to be doing anything today. I'm going to eat tonight at AAA buffet, which I'm excited for. Yeah that's it. I'm going to talk about yesterday now.
Yesterday I didn't blog cause I was bored. I woke up at 1:47, and I had to be at church by 2. I got there at 2:15. We (Sam, Kaleb, JP) were taking a ... what's the word ... uhh PLACEMENT test, or just to see where we were at, for the SAT. It was two hours long, which actually didn't seem too long. We were supposed to go to the library after that (WHICH I SHOULD HAVE FRICK) but ended up going to Nacho's house, then JP's house, and just played Zenonia. All day. All night. At 1:00 I started reading Crime and Punishment, and got chapter 4 and slept. Yeah that was my day.
I might post something later if something comes up.
Peacee
Monday, August 31, 2009
Fabulouss Dayy [08.29.09]
So today is not yesterday, but I'm going to talk about it. I was meaning to write this last night, but I ended up getting sidetracked and was not able to.
I woke up at around 9, but pressing snooze on my alarm clock in 10 minute intervals until 10:10. I got up and showered and stuff, and then left for Yunhap at about 11:40. I was going to help out with special Ed kids with Sam Choi, Sam Back, Brian Na, and other people. We had praise, which was good. I was really into it. It was pretty fun. We also ate pizza during lunch, and that was good.
I was partners with this guy named Matthew. He was in love with this girl named Green, which is her name because on the day that he first saw her she was wearing green. He calls me White. He was asking me, "Why won't she date me??" and I told him it was because he was 22 and she was 18 (but I'm not sure if that was the real reason). He would not take no for an answer. He went up to her multiple times and asked when it would be okay to date, because apparently he asked before and she said it was a maybe that she'd go out with him. When he asked how long he had to wait, she said until she turned 25. He was then asking me what he should do for 7 years, and kept asking her if she would get jealous. Later, he asked if he could marry her, and she said no, so heartbroken, he just fell to the ground. I couldn't pick him up. He was pretty big, and very strong. So Sam B and I decided to lay down with him. He pretended to be dead. I grabbed his arm and then he grabs my hand, and squeezes it frickin hard, and I couldn't move my hand afterwards. Frick. I was sort of mad at Green for not being very nice to him.
There was also another girl, named Soojin. She called me Bi/Rain, a korean celebrity, cause of my hair. I don't look like him at all. She kept complimenting on my hair and earring and etc., and eventually asked for my number. Being nice, I gave it to her. She now will not stop calling me. It's sort of weird. She also likes Choi, but she didn't ask him for his number. Frickk. So I guess I'm a hypocrite, and I see why Green was mean to Matthew. I told Soojin that my girlfriend said I couldn't talk to her. Harsh? You try having someone call you 24/7.
After that, we went to Kristie's birthday party at Red Robins! IT WAS GREAT! Haha, besides the fact that I got caked... It was really good because I got to reconnect with an old friend on mine, Grace Oh. :)
Later, we went to the rec. I breakdanced, and others played basketball. It was a lot of fun. Played some ping pong and what not. Got owned by Choi. Frick I need to get better. Finally, at like 10:00, I drove him with my drunk dad.
It was a pretty nice day.
AND NOW FOR TODAY. I wrote the first part of this entry in the morning, and now it's 12 in the morning-morning.
Today I did not like very much. I had to go somewhere with my parents and grandma, and ended up missing dance tryouts and church. I also missed Sam's welcome back party. I pretty much wasted the day, and it was uncomfortable and gross and FRICK. Yeah.
I don't have any deep thoughts right now, but I will have some later. Peaceee.
I woke up at around 9, but pressing snooze on my alarm clock in 10 minute intervals until 10:10. I got up and showered and stuff, and then left for Yunhap at about 11:40. I was going to help out with special Ed kids with Sam Choi, Sam Back, Brian Na, and other people. We had praise, which was good. I was really into it. It was pretty fun. We also ate pizza during lunch, and that was good.
I was partners with this guy named Matthew. He was in love with this girl named Green, which is her name because on the day that he first saw her she was wearing green. He calls me White. He was asking me, "Why won't she date me??" and I told him it was because he was 22 and she was 18 (but I'm not sure if that was the real reason). He would not take no for an answer. He went up to her multiple times and asked when it would be okay to date, because apparently he asked before and she said it was a maybe that she'd go out with him. When he asked how long he had to wait, she said until she turned 25. He was then asking me what he should do for 7 years, and kept asking her if she would get jealous. Later, he asked if he could marry her, and she said no, so heartbroken, he just fell to the ground. I couldn't pick him up. He was pretty big, and very strong. So Sam B and I decided to lay down with him. He pretended to be dead. I grabbed his arm and then he grabs my hand, and squeezes it frickin hard, and I couldn't move my hand afterwards. Frick. I was sort of mad at Green for not being very nice to him.
There was also another girl, named Soojin. She called me Bi/Rain, a korean celebrity, cause of my hair. I don't look like him at all. She kept complimenting on my hair and earring and etc., and eventually asked for my number. Being nice, I gave it to her. She now will not stop calling me. It's sort of weird. She also likes Choi, but she didn't ask him for his number. Frickk. So I guess I'm a hypocrite, and I see why Green was mean to Matthew. I told Soojin that my girlfriend said I couldn't talk to her. Harsh? You try having someone call you 24/7.
After that, we went to Kristie's birthday party at Red Robins! IT WAS GREAT! Haha, besides the fact that I got caked... It was really good because I got to reconnect with an old friend on mine, Grace Oh. :)
Later, we went to the rec. I breakdanced, and others played basketball. It was a lot of fun. Played some ping pong and what not. Got owned by Choi. Frick I need to get better. Finally, at like 10:00, I drove him with my drunk dad.
It was a pretty nice day.
AND NOW FOR TODAY. I wrote the first part of this entry in the morning, and now it's 12 in the morning-morning.
Today I did not like very much. I had to go somewhere with my parents and grandma, and ended up missing dance tryouts and church. I also missed Sam's welcome back party. I pretty much wasted the day, and it was uncomfortable and gross and FRICK. Yeah.
I don't have any deep thoughts right now, but I will have some later. Peaceee.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Weird Day [08.29.09, 3:00 AM]
So last night, er, early this morning, I was feeling pretty down. I could say why, but I choose not too, just because it'd be weird to see everyone see. I was ready to just sleep and forget about it, but I actually had someone to talk to who stayed up with me a bit and helped cheer me up. Thank you, :).
Today started out rough. I sent text messages and got no replies. I ended up busing to Pochi's with the mindset of meeting with with friends I haven't hung out with in a while, but ended up getting there late. I was so late that everyone had already dipped out and I was fricking by myself, besides Grace, Beaver, and Jay. But then I called Colleen and she was with Clara across the street, and I decided to bus to Andrew's house. Which meant that I frickin bused from my house to pochi's to past my house to the Northgate transit center, and then to bus again to Andrew's house. Clara has like, two cartilage ridges in her nose, which is pretty strange. I have one. And so does Colleen. Clara says that a lot of white people have it, but I've never seen/felt one before haha.
Andrew's house was pretty fun, and I was hanging out with Clara and Colleen, which I haven't done in a very long time. It was nice, and we said hi to Teresa, Andrew's younger sister, who looks just like her mom. That was strange. She's like her twin.
After that, we just watched each other play Tetris, and Colleen and Andrew seriously fail at it. Like really fail. Like failboat, noobcake, etc. Finally, we got picked up by Jeff and dropped Colleen off, and went to church!
Church was nice. I think it was awkward for Clara though, but it's always awkward for newcomers to see people getting into worship and stuffs. Tonight was a great night of worship; I thought that I was going to lose my voice. Tyler had also shown up today, which is great. He's going to constantly show up at church.
Small groups was also fun. It was thoughtful and nice. I got in trouble a lot though. Frick, Elizabeth. But whatever.
Next, we went to eat at Applebees, which was goooood stuff. After we dropped off Allen, Josh, Andrew, and I went on a drive to downtown on Aurora. We had a nice and interesting talk about everything. Mostly boundaries though. But yeah, it was a good talk. When I got home, though, I got in trouble for coming late. I wasn't supposed to come after 1, but I ended up doing it anyways. Frick. I tried to make it up by saying I was going to do community service tomorrow, but I think my mom just got madder. Is madder a word? I can't really think of a better word to describe her. It's hard to think at 3 in the morning.
Anyways, tomorrow - er, later today - is going to be confusing. There were three events planned, and I think I'm going to a birthday party. There's a barbecue, party, and a birthday party, all scheduled on Saturday. Oh well. I just hope that I'm going to be able to wake up early enough later today to go to Yunhap and help out. I'm feeling ... sorta good right now. Not bad, not horrible. I'm done writing tonight. Peaaaaace.
Today started out rough. I sent text messages and got no replies. I ended up busing to Pochi's with the mindset of meeting with with friends I haven't hung out with in a while, but ended up getting there late. I was so late that everyone had already dipped out and I was fricking by myself, besides Grace, Beaver, and Jay. But then I called Colleen and she was with Clara across the street, and I decided to bus to Andrew's house. Which meant that I frickin bused from my house to pochi's to past my house to the Northgate transit center, and then to bus again to Andrew's house. Clara has like, two cartilage ridges in her nose, which is pretty strange. I have one. And so does Colleen. Clara says that a lot of white people have it, but I've never seen/felt one before haha.
Andrew's house was pretty fun, and I was hanging out with Clara and Colleen, which I haven't done in a very long time. It was nice, and we said hi to Teresa, Andrew's younger sister, who looks just like her mom. That was strange. She's like her twin.
After that, we just watched each other play Tetris, and Colleen and Andrew seriously fail at it. Like really fail. Like failboat, noobcake, etc. Finally, we got picked up by Jeff and dropped Colleen off, and went to church!
Church was nice. I think it was awkward for Clara though, but it's always awkward for newcomers to see people getting into worship and stuffs. Tonight was a great night of worship; I thought that I was going to lose my voice. Tyler had also shown up today, which is great. He's going to constantly show up at church.
Small groups was also fun. It was thoughtful and nice. I got in trouble a lot though. Frick, Elizabeth. But whatever.
Next, we went to eat at Applebees, which was goooood stuff. After we dropped off Allen, Josh, Andrew, and I went on a drive to downtown on Aurora. We had a nice and interesting talk about everything. Mostly boundaries though. But yeah, it was a good talk. When I got home, though, I got in trouble for coming late. I wasn't supposed to come after 1, but I ended up doing it anyways. Frick. I tried to make it up by saying I was going to do community service tomorrow, but I think my mom just got madder. Is madder a word? I can't really think of a better word to describe her. It's hard to think at 3 in the morning.
Anyways, tomorrow - er, later today - is going to be confusing. There were three events planned, and I think I'm going to a birthday party. There's a barbecue, party, and a birthday party, all scheduled on Saturday. Oh well. I just hope that I'm going to be able to wake up early enough later today to go to Yunhap and help out. I'm feeling ... sorta good right now. Not bad, not horrible. I'm done writing tonight. Peaaaaace.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Currently [08.28.09, 2:04 AM]
As the last days of summer quickly pass by, we slowly change in order to be ready for the upcoming school year. As for me, I am squeezing every last drop of summer. Each day is filled with fun and excitement, when it should be spent on something important, such as summer homework. But right now, I just want to enjoy summer while it lasts.
Each day of this final week is filled with plans, such as beach barbeques, or bonding time, or just random parties. I'm excited, but what am I supposed to do? There are too many things to do, with such little time. Time is seemingly the most valuable thing to me at the moment. I need to be able to spend it well, and plan well. I will make sure that this summer will end with a blast, and then I will have to quickly transition into school.
School is something I've been a bit nervous about. My classes are not what I had hoped to be. Many of my friends are in classes with one another, and I seem to be the one with random classes that nobody else has. I find it frustrating how my counselor switched up all of my classes just because of one, which could have easily been switched to something that I would have much, MUCH preffered. The class is chemistry, and I guess 6th period was full, but that's not what my friend said who apparently sweet talked the counselor to let him in. That was frustrating.
But seriously, real talk. Why the frick am I in classes that no one has? Chemistry 3rd period? I'm seriously like the only person who has it 3rd. Everyone else is either 6th period or 4th. Really pissing me off. But whatever, I'm just going to see who's all in my classes when school starts.
I don't think I'm at all prepared for this school year. I'm only taking one AP class, and that's literature. I feel as though I should be taking APUSH, but I think it's too late. Going to UW would be easy enough, I think, that I wouldn't have to take APUSH, but Andrew thinks otherwise. He's .. what's the frickin word... I can't think right now. PARANOID that's it. Yeah. I guess I'm just like the chill whatever sort of guy, but really I'm freaking out cause I haven't started reading my AP Lit books yet, which I will start very soon.. I'm about to have a reading fest all night someday soon.
How's life? People answer this question without thinking. They say, "It's good, how's yours?" And I'm thinking, "shut up, you liar". Cause whose life is good these days? If your life seemed good then why would I have asked? Unless I don't know you, then yeah. I think if someone read this, they would be thinking, WTF IS JASON TALKING ABOUT. But really I don't know. Life is.. difficult.
There are just many things wrong, and only little things going right. But it's those little things that make you just want to keep going. And other stuffs like that. Like, homecoming. Seriously, HC is like 3 months away, but we're already all talking about it. It seems to me like everyone's getting dates already, so why don't I too? But really, I don't know who to take. We'll just see when the time comes. Money also seems to be a small issue. It seems like we can never get enough of it. I really think that I spend too much on food, which is true. I need to start spending money wisely.
Because this is my first post, I want it to be long and nice. Today, I woke up and didn't have any food, so I went out to McDonalds and ate a Big Mac. Why the frick is a Big Mac Medium meal 8 dollars? I mean seriously. I remember when it was 2 for $3.00. That was fricking nice. But yeah after I ate I went over to a friends house to bus to Brian's house in Lynwood. I was sweating like crazy, and my shirt was sticking onto my shirt the whole half-hour-or -so bus ride. Then we got lost, and ended up going further than where we were supposed to be. So we just got picked up and got to Brian's house. We watched I love you man, and it was one of the most awkwardest movies I've ever seen.
The main character was seriously making me frustrated because he was such a frickin noob at making guy friends. I mean what the heck. Just watch it and you'll see. But it was funny, and I ended up liking it. A part of the movie that I especially liked was the part where the main guy was like, "I'll try" and Sydney said to get the word "try" out of his vocabulary and just do it. That was nice. Sydney's the guy from Forgetting Sarah Marshall, and I frickin loved that movie haha. That was my first haha, haha. Nice. If you're still reading this, then that's tight.
After we watched the movie, we ate some ice cream and talked about language and food, and other weird stuff like that. It was an interesting talk.
When I got home, I didn't do much besides talk to people online. I talked and talked and now I'm starting this blog.
This blog is called "Thinking Out Loud", which is pretty much what I'm doing. Just typing whatever comes to mind TETRIS.
You know what's stupid? I think I play so much tetris that I see myself playing tetris in my head whenever I close my eyes. Like, it got to a point where I couldn't pray, because I was playing tetris, IN MY HEAD. LIKE WHAT THE FRICK? So yeah, I need to take a break. The only person ahead of me on tetris is Jaymo, which I will definitely beat later on.
WHAT I'M EXCITED FOR IS THE TALENT SHOW. So David and I have been discussing the talent show, which we will be doing together. It's going to be a dance performance, including about 2 more dancers, so 4 total. It's about to be sick, and I'm excited for it.
That's pretty much all that's on my mind. Besides this girl. Haha yeah. So I'm gonna plug in my ethernet cable to start the internet up again. I unplugged it because whenever it's plugged in, it makes the modem blink green. The modem's in my parents room, and apparently the blinking light is so annoying that my mom can't sleep and so she said she was gonna shut up the internet. So if this gets posted the next morning, then darn. I'ma try right now. Peaaaace.
Each day of this final week is filled with plans, such as beach barbeques, or bonding time, or just random parties. I'm excited, but what am I supposed to do? There are too many things to do, with such little time. Time is seemingly the most valuable thing to me at the moment. I need to be able to spend it well, and plan well. I will make sure that this summer will end with a blast, and then I will have to quickly transition into school.
School is something I've been a bit nervous about. My classes are not what I had hoped to be. Many of my friends are in classes with one another, and I seem to be the one with random classes that nobody else has. I find it frustrating how my counselor switched up all of my classes just because of one, which could have easily been switched to something that I would have much, MUCH preffered. The class is chemistry, and I guess 6th period was full, but that's not what my friend said who apparently sweet talked the counselor to let him in. That was frustrating.
But seriously, real talk. Why the frick am I in classes that no one has? Chemistry 3rd period? I'm seriously like the only person who has it 3rd. Everyone else is either 6th period or 4th. Really pissing me off. But whatever, I'm just going to see who's all in my classes when school starts.
I don't think I'm at all prepared for this school year. I'm only taking one AP class, and that's literature. I feel as though I should be taking APUSH, but I think it's too late. Going to UW would be easy enough, I think, that I wouldn't have to take APUSH, but Andrew thinks otherwise. He's .. what's the frickin word... I can't think right now. PARANOID that's it. Yeah. I guess I'm just like the chill whatever sort of guy, but really I'm freaking out cause I haven't started reading my AP Lit books yet, which I will start very soon.. I'm about to have a reading fest all night someday soon.
How's life? People answer this question without thinking. They say, "It's good, how's yours?" And I'm thinking, "shut up, you liar". Cause whose life is good these days? If your life seemed good then why would I have asked? Unless I don't know you, then yeah. I think if someone read this, they would be thinking, WTF IS JASON TALKING ABOUT. But really I don't know. Life is.. difficult.
There are just many things wrong, and only little things going right. But it's those little things that make you just want to keep going. And other stuffs like that. Like, homecoming. Seriously, HC is like 3 months away, but we're already all talking about it. It seems to me like everyone's getting dates already, so why don't I too? But really, I don't know who to take. We'll just see when the time comes. Money also seems to be a small issue. It seems like we can never get enough of it. I really think that I spend too much on food, which is true. I need to start spending money wisely.
Because this is my first post, I want it to be long and nice. Today, I woke up and didn't have any food, so I went out to McDonalds and ate a Big Mac. Why the frick is a Big Mac Medium meal 8 dollars? I mean seriously. I remember when it was 2 for $3.00. That was fricking nice. But yeah after I ate I went over to a friends house to bus to Brian's house in Lynwood. I was sweating like crazy, and my shirt was sticking onto my shirt the whole half-hour-or -so bus ride. Then we got lost, and ended up going further than where we were supposed to be. So we just got picked up and got to Brian's house. We watched I love you man, and it was one of the most awkwardest movies I've ever seen.
The main character was seriously making me frustrated because he was such a frickin noob at making guy friends. I mean what the heck. Just watch it and you'll see. But it was funny, and I ended up liking it. A part of the movie that I especially liked was the part where the main guy was like, "I'll try" and Sydney said to get the word "try" out of his vocabulary and just do it. That was nice. Sydney's the guy from Forgetting Sarah Marshall, and I frickin loved that movie haha. That was my first haha, haha. Nice. If you're still reading this, then that's tight.
After we watched the movie, we ate some ice cream and talked about language and food, and other weird stuff like that. It was an interesting talk.
When I got home, I didn't do much besides talk to people online. I talked and talked and now I'm starting this blog.
This blog is called "Thinking Out Loud", which is pretty much what I'm doing. Just typing whatever comes to mind TETRIS.
You know what's stupid? I think I play so much tetris that I see myself playing tetris in my head whenever I close my eyes. Like, it got to a point where I couldn't pray, because I was playing tetris, IN MY HEAD. LIKE WHAT THE FRICK? So yeah, I need to take a break. The only person ahead of me on tetris is Jaymo, which I will definitely beat later on.
WHAT I'M EXCITED FOR IS THE TALENT SHOW. So David and I have been discussing the talent show, which we will be doing together. It's going to be a dance performance, including about 2 more dancers, so 4 total. It's about to be sick, and I'm excited for it.
That's pretty much all that's on my mind. Besides this girl. Haha yeah. So I'm gonna plug in my ethernet cable to start the internet up again. I unplugged it because whenever it's plugged in, it makes the modem blink green. The modem's in my parents room, and apparently the blinking light is so annoying that my mom can't sleep and so she said she was gonna shut up the internet. So if this gets posted the next morning, then darn. I'ma try right now. Peaaaace.
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